Is It Normal to Obsession Hop So Much?

Today is April 24th and it is cold, wet and snowing on and off.

I got a karma apology in the form of getting my exam grade 22/25 and a job offer.

So I’m not going to complain too much about the snow.

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15!

Am waiting for my landlord to get here so he can put in a new light bulb, before you question why we need to have our landlord do it look at this

That is our very high ceiling that requires a ladder to even reach the light. The landlord is the only one who has a ladder.

We contacted him about it two weeks ago and he was finally able to come take a look yesterday. He gets up there takes out the lightbulb and says “Okay I will come back tomorrow with a new bulb.”

It is almost 7pm and he is not here

So happy I am moving next month.

This evening I had the pleasure of attending a Marianas Trench concert.

I was expecting one hell of a show, and boy did I get it.

The opening act was Down With Webster, I’m not a big fan of theirs but they got me going for the main act. Huge props to their drummer for using sound effects to play out some Mario music and a remix of Oppa Gangman Style.

I knew the rest of the concert was going to be spectacular when MT incorporated video footage as their background to tell the story of their album.

And then came Josh Fabulous Ramsey floating out of a Jack-in-the-Box in glittery green vest, top hat, and tight ass shiny stretch pants.

From there out it was just one awesome song after another.

Best part of the night.

Josh decides to go hang out with the audience so first he jumps over into our side of the stadium, he got so close to me and my little sister I swear I saw all the glitter in his hair and on his face. Closest celebrity encounter of my life. (My sister’s main saying for the rest of the night was ‘I could have touched him!’)

After a repeat on the other side of the stadium Josh decided to love the mosh pit with an attempt at crowd surfing. I say attempt because it turned into a Tug-of-War between security and the crowd. Security had his one ankle and the crowd had the rest of him, was quite impressed they didn’t pull him apart.

In comparison to my other concert experiences, once Fall Out Boy and twice Green Day, I’d have to rank this above them all.

And the quote of the evening that I really enjoyed. “This would be great to mike my dick!” (Josh says this as he tries to adjust a microphone that was set up next to the acoustic piano they had rolled out onto the stage.)

This is my GIF representative of me during the entire concert

I mentioned it in a post before but now this is solely about my mimi.

A couple months back I was told that my mimi has gotten a third case of cancer, this time in her liver. The other two times was in her breast and thigh bone. 

Yesterday I received a text from my dad telling me my mimi has maybe a couple weeks left if that.

I’ve been feeling like a horrible granddaughter these past few weeks because I am unable to go visit her.

I asked my parents about seeing her asap after receiving that text and they more or less discouraged it because her condition has gotten to the point where she can barely remember people.

I have had encounters with the death of a person I knew only twice.

The first time was a good friend of mine in high school, I was in my second semester of college in my first year when I saw the update on facebook about his pacing. It didn’t sink right away since I’d only gotten to enjoy his company for one year of high school. Half way through my psychology class it hit me and I quietly cried for him without anyone even noticing.

The second time wasn’t even a whole month ago. I knew this boy from when we were in a grade 7/8 split class. I wasn’t anything more than an acquaintance with him so I didn’t even know that he had been fighting against leukaemia for a few years. When my best friend told me I decided to spend that night reflecting on all the memories I did have of him. Most were just brief encounters but he was still a part of my life even if it was brief.

This time I am fighting with myself constantly not to think on the future of my life without my mimi. If I keep my thoughts on her for too long I immediately almost begin to cry (as I am beginning to now) and so I’ve been keeping myself distracted through the internet, reading, and games. It’s getting harder and harder not to let it go, but I don’t want to break down before she has actually left me. She is still alive and I am sure she would want me to not worry about her too much during this difficult time.

I think it all entirely unfair though since I haven’t known her my whole life. My father was adopted and it wasn’t until I was 11 that I met her and the rest of my family. I turn 21 this year. I have only gotten to spend 10 years of my life with this incredible woman. I hate life or fate or whatever you want to call the reason for her leaving us.

I felt it was necessary to post this because I have not spoken these thoughts out loud to anyone, not even to myself. I knew why I was seeking distracting, but letting others know just seems to be a good idea. I don’t know.

Well that is it.

I’ve been awake since 7am.

And since waking up all I can think about is crawling back into bed.

I can’t though because I work from 12:30 to 9, I leave at 11.

It also looks like it’s going to be a bitch of a day with rain outside =.=

Is it safe to blame everything on Slenderman since it was because of him that I slept badly?

All day everything went over so smoothly (minus monthly cramps *glares at inner feminine parts*)

My mom stopped by and we hung out and talked about how we might do things in the next few years.

She gave me a ride to work.

Nothing happened with anyone trying to give me a hard time.

Ten minutes until closing and this one guy shows up.

“I want a bouquet of 99 roses.” Is what he asks of me.

I obliged while in my mind I raged like this

After he left I didn’t get the closed sign up fast enough for a woman and her daughter to not approach me about buying some flowers. She went over easier since she wanted to leave as fast as possible.

After that I closed up with no problems. I bought a nice little cherry pie and a box of poptarts.

In a rush I didn’t put the pie in my backpack (plus I was worried about it being damaged)

Half way to the bus stop I see the bus coming. On Saturdays the bus comes every HOUR after 7pm. I ran for it.

FIVE STEPS AWAY, MY PIE FLEW OUT OF THE BOX AND DESTROYED ITSELF ON THE GROUND!!!

Day started out decently.

Woke up at 7:30 and couldn’t get back to sleep.

Got some good shit done on Animal Crossing (need to play more!)

Got a good chunk of my book read,(Book Two of the Lioness Quartet by Tamora Pierce)

Then everything went boring when I got a phone call from work asking me to come in as early as physically possible without an explanation why. I was originally supposed to go in at 4pm, they called at 11:15am.

Was encouraged by my boyfriend and my desperate need of money to accept and head in as soon as possible. Turned out my assistant-manager got stung by a bee, and she is highly allergic. She’s fine, she had her PEN of Life and we have a clinic attached to our store.

Work was so-so in term of business, had an incident with a regular customer I’ve never even heard of, but it was settled smoothly thanks to the excuse of “Sorry I’m a noob at this job.”

What was awesome was once more selling my own floral arrangement. The first thing the customer said about it was that they loved it.

Got home without incident besides sore aching feet, ate some awesome rice with creamed corn mixture. Boyfriend said I was weird and that my concoction offended him. But he still loves me :D

Come check tumblr and emails and find that someone wasn’t happy about me posting my Transformer’s fanfiction under the Transformer’s tag. I don’t know how to do the linky thing that makes it say “Read more” so I just told him he can deal with it until the chapters are done, it’s not my fault that not enough people post on Transformers that he comes across my chapters quickly :P (You don’t see it posted cause it’s posted under a branch off blog that I will only give the name of to people that are interested.)

So yes, there is my day in a nut-shell rant.

Highlight was Constellationonloop telling me my blog is lovely <3 ~

Today was a boring day with sampling thanks to them making me sample No Name Granola bars. *Unimpressed*

Tomorrow will be better since I will be working floral, though it will also be longer. *Shrugs*

Then on Monday until Friday it will be peaceful for me.

Expect that I need to call Ricki’s and pray they let me reschedule an interview.

I wouldn’t mind working retail and floral rather than sampling and floral.

Here’s hoping!

If you don’t read the deep undertones it is clearly an awesome children’s movie.

But I read into those undertones, and found that movie SUPER depressing.

I still love it, and I hope it reached out to people to understand how things could end up.

I mean, one day, some evil little greedy midget jerk will be rich because we are buying AIR from him.